Tattoos and Roses

During this time of year I am always taken back to the days when my grandparents were alive.  Walking into the house and smelling the wonderful aroma of my granny's cooking and hearing her laugh at something that one us did.  Listening to my papa having all of the grandchildren gathered around him tell stories of the days when he was young.  My all time favorite was when he set the barn and mule on fire!  He was so animated.  I seem to think each year that they are slipping farther away from me, but when the holidays come around the pain becomes almost overwhelming again.  I will never understand exactly why they were ripped from our lives so soon or why it seemed so unfair that they were the ones taken and not others.  I miss them.  The days I spent with them I will forever cherish.  I certainly wish they could have been there in person to watch me marry the love of my life and give me the advice that I need when we hit those rocky spot...

So have you ever had the feeling that sometimes your life is spinning out of control or that every turn you make you hit a brick wall.  Well I feel like I have had one of those weeks.  I don't really know if it is just the stress from work that has me all a-muck or maybe I am stressing about the unknown.  All I know is I need a change and I can't wait.

Over the past few week or so I have come to the realization that I am not completely satisfied with where I am in my life.  No, I don't mean my marriage or anything like that, I would not change one thing about that.  I am talking about my career life.  I never, in a million years, pictured myself sitting behind a desk and don't think anyone else did either.  I have always been the type of person that has needed something to do at all times.  Maybe a little A.D.D.!  I have a steady job, that pays the bills, little excitement, seeing the same people doing the same transactions every week. I NEED MORE STIMULATION!!!  I require a career that will keep me on my toes, something that that will keep me motivated, keep intrigued.    The thought has crossed my mind that maybe the reason I didn't continue my nursing education is because I had the belief that it was "too hard" or that I just wasn't ready for that much respons...

I have come to the conclusion that I am fed up with certain people! People that complain constantly. Create their own drama.  Have a holier than thou attitude.  This is my response - F*** you!     If you play games with people and their emotions, karma is going to bite you in the a**, and quite frankly, I will be there to point, laugh, and tell 'you what did I say?!'  You would think that someone of your age would know by now (after two marriages, two kids, and multiple men you have brought into your life) that what you are doing is not working.  HELLO!!  Clean out you ears and listen to the people around you.  I may be younger than you, but I believe that I have enough knowledge with the s*** I have been through to give you a bit of advice.   Hey you....Yeah you....over there.  Just because I don't go to church, dress the way you think I should, or hell even live my life the way you see fit....Shut up!  I don'...

Our travels went well we made it safely to and from Tennessee.  During our drive up I was amazed at the number of 80's love songs that my husband knew the words too.  It was hilarious he was singing in a very high pitched voice.  I was trying not to cry/pee my pants I was laughing so hard!  Our stay was nice.  It seems though the more we visit the more we become a part of Greeneville, TN.  I quote my husband when I say "Every time we leave Surry County it gets harder to come back".  It is my belief that each time you visit a place you either take a piece of it with you or a piece of you stays.  I'm thinking that a piece of us stayed in Tennessee. Our drive home was not as eventful. We were fairly exhausted by the time we hit the North Carolina state line.  At that point both of us were just ready to get back to "our" bed. After arriving we managed to actually get everything put away.  (Things normally stay in the luggage fo...

Sitting here in the hotel room, TV going, husband asleep on the bed....very relaxing.  I am looking forward to the new adventures that life is going to be throwing our way.  Looks like we will be relocating to Greeneville/Johnson City, TN soon.  We will see soon enough.  The opportunities that will be put in front of us with Gary attending Tusculum will be amazing.  Keeping fingers crossed. I know that some look at us moving as a means of running from something, but the way we look at it is...We are only young once.  We are looking to experence things while we still can and enjoy them.  Although there is a part of me that is wanting to get away from the bad memories that are held in Surry County.  Everytime you turn around there is someone from a painful part of your past...kind of makes it hard to heal some of those painful wounds.  Although I have to say that at this point in my life I am very content with the way things are looking....

So I have finally entered the world of blogging.  I am a new to the scene. My husbabnd and I are usually getting into something so hopefully some of our adventures will blog worthy!!