My own worst enemy

Yesterday my husband and I were out on the town primarily to just get out of the house.  He found a coat that he has been wanting for some time.  He tried it on and it didn't fit.  You could see the disappointment on his face.  Well, guess who comes into the picture to make matters worse....me.  Without thinking about how it would be taken or how it would affect him I said "Loose some weight".

Okay, I did not mean for it to sound like I was being mean or that I think he's overweight or anything like that.  That was certainly not what I wanted him to hear.  The response was a well deserved cold response.  Now he is barely speaking two words to me.  I have apologized and explained to him that's not how the comment was meant to be taken.  I am afraid that I may have truly messed this up.  I love Gary with all of my heart and would never do anything that would intentionally hurt him.  There is nothing that I would change about him.  In my eyes he is perfect.  I fell in love with him for him.  I would never want to change that.  Gary I love you more than you know, please forgive me.   

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