Indecision and cupcakes

Over the past few week or so I have come to the realization that I am not completely satisfied with where I am in my life.  No, I don't mean my marriage or anything like that, I would not change one thing about that.  I am talking about my career life.  I never, in a million years, pictured myself sitting behind a desk and don't think anyone else did either.  I have always been the type of person that has needed something to do at all times.  Maybe a little A.D.D.!  I have a steady job, that pays the bills, little excitement, seeing the same people doing the same transactions every week. I NEED MORE STIMULATION!!!  I require a career that will keep me on my toes, something that that will keep me motivated, keep intrigued.   


The thought has crossed my mind that maybe the reason I didn't continue my nursing education is because I had the belief that it was "too hard" or that I just wasn't ready for that much responsibility.  Hell, possibly even that I was lazy and didn't want to take on the challenge.  When I know the true reason is cause I can't handle the death part of it.  So, I have been giving this nagging part of me a some time to ponder on what I would like to do and this what the conclusion has come to.......


Culinary School.


I know what some of your are thinking...What?!  I have a passion for food!  I love to eat it, make it, everything about food excites me!  The way that you can feed someones soul with food.  It's a pure way of saying "I love you" and "You mean a lot to me".  Yes fashion has also been another delight of mine, however, I have been able to experience it.  It will always be there (I will never give up my obsession for shoes!).  My mom can tell you that even when I was little I loved being in the kitchen.  Another reason I love cooking so much is that it makes me feel closer to my grandparents.  When I cook it is almost like I can see Granny and Papa looking over my shoulder saying that's right, good job.  Food has always been a big part of my family.  We always gathered around the table at Granny's once to twice a week, sometimes more.  It can bring families together, comfort you when you need some reassurance, and create memorable moments that you never forget.  Like the time my dad and I made that massive cookie for Santa, I know he's the one that took that big bite, but I will never forget it.  Or watching my Granny making fried apple pies during the summer.  I want everyone to experience the connections that I have with foods, to be able to let people feel that closeness it can bring.  I wan to enrich peoples minds, bodies, and souls.  This is my goal.