(Just Like) Starting Over

As of late, there have been many questions spinning in and around my head.  I seem to be very unsure of a lot of things right now.  I am not happy with my job, I am staying stressed.  I want to make a change, but am utterly terrified of the steps it takes to make those changes.  I want to go back to school.  I would love to live  in a city.  Work in fashion again.

What's stopping you, you ask?  ME.  It's a simple answer, but a hard one to face.  I am truly my on worst enemy.  I doubt almost every decision I make.  I wish that the confident girl that didn't take crap from anyone was still here.  She would know what to do.  I have got to find a way to get back to her.  I have hid in the shadows for too long.  I want my time to shine, succeed, and be everything that I am supposed to be.

The only things I am certain of are that I have a wonderful band of friends surrounding me, amazing family, and I am with the one that does love me unconditionally.  As far as Heather, I am not sure that I really know her anymore.  Somehow, she has gotten lost throughout the years.  With all of the heartaches, bruises, and failures she was buried at one point.  The hard part is going to be digging my way through the crud to find her once again.  Possibly waking some of my inner demons that have haunted me for years.

I am determined to get back to ME.  To find what my purpose is.


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  1. RoseDecember 10, 2012 at 11:17 PM

    Good luck on your journey. You are a very powerful woman whether you believe it or not. I believe in you and I know that you can touch the stars.

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